Caleb Caleb Caleb…Posted: July 14, 2012
Caleb did great…for a few days…he. did. great! I thought “Success! Problem solved!”
Do you see the but coming?
But then…slowly but surely…things began to change…my supply got imbalanced again and by yesterday he was struggling and not sleeping at all. I realized that I was trading things that I thought were very important (breast milk & no pharmaceuticals) for things equally as important (his sleep & comfort..and my sanity and and and). Although I believe breast milk is best…it is not for Caleb…at least not now and I can’t drag
him any of us through more of trying this and trying that. I can go through all the in’s and out’s of all I tried –and boy did I try–and why my milk gets imbalanced…but that’s the bottom line. I was desperate for my own agenda…due to my own insecurites…of not being “mom enough”. When the important thing is that I am Caleb’s mom…and that’s enough…enough of a reason to give up my own agenda and give him what clearly helps him. I just want him to be comfortable and enjoy every precious, God-given moment with him and praise the Lord that his problems are small and the solution is simple.
So all-in-all…I have a (really expensive) formula fed-Prevacid takin’ baby but…
He is comfortable and sleeping soundly…and my heart is so happy.
And on the bight-side…there are some serious advantages to a bottle-fed baby 🙂